I wrote this on 01/01/2022. I trust that this timing, aligned with the beautiful Spring energy, will support those who need this message most.

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2021 was an intense, internal, different year over here.

In the Spring of 2021, after feeling the call for several months, I listened and just stopped. I stopped listening to anyone/anything else except my internal guidance. I relaxed and just started being how I was, where I was, moment to moment, regardless of how the mind wanted it to be. I leaned into the inquiries:

• When my life is not about this goal or achievement, who am I?
• Can I be where I am now and feel fulfilled?
• How much money do I really require to live a life I call successful?

I let go of all my ideas of what it looked like to have what I wanted. I stopped chasing life, money, clients, outcomes and told God:

“I’m ready. I’m listening. Pursue me. Open me, and show me what you want for me. Let life come and ravage me how it wants because what I’m doing isn’t working and I’m over it.”

What followed next was wholly unexpected. The list below illustrates just some of the themes that ravaged me for the year:

• ego, identity, personality
• suicide, death
• family, home
• cancer, illness, disease
• love, marriage, partnership
• time, physical reality, spiritual reality
• money, success, integrity, values, wealth
• unity consciousness, community, support

2021’s Wisdom Crash course?

Life keeps coming, and it’s not always a dream that feels good, flowy, warm, or creative. Life can be ruthless, brutal even. Indeed, some things are out of our control, will make zero sense, and will rock our worlds. Doesn’t matter the fuck-ton of spiritual practices and personal development one has done. Life gives every one of us multiple servings of shit sandwiches. No one is exempt; this is the human experience.

Trying to ignore and create on top of this is shaky ground. The foundation of anything is the one thing that matters. Time, death, and reality are ultimate, universal, and complex. These topics consist of fibers and layers woven across multiple concurrent timelines. There will be instances when no answer, explanation, or solution will feel good enough to soothe the human psyche – unless it’s rooted in God.

It Is All God

God is in motion, in everything ALWAYS. Personally, this is a solid foundation I have tested repeatedly. I tried to make this untrue. The results are undeniable: I have superpowers available at my disposal when God/my God-self is the foundation.

In mid-late December, I felt my way through layers and timelines of immense grief and fear of potentially losing a beloved family member. In that vulnerable, surrendered space, it all clicked:
~I am a woman who feels everything intensely, and I get to let it all come through me, keeping my heart, mind, body, and soul wide open to be ravaged by it all.
~I get to keep choosing me WHILE the shit sandwich is bestowed upon me.
~I don’t have to shut off, down, run, or stop moving towards what lights me up.
~I say who I am and if I wish to expand to hold it all, or if I wish to contract.

I’m ready for whatever life wants to give me and keep my heart open through it all. I know there will be times when the pain feels so intense my mind will ask me to shut down and run. My heart has been cracked open to new depths. Beliefs I carry about a lot of shit that just doesn’t fucking matter have been exposed and are lovingly being worked through. I’m here for it all because It Is All God.

2021 you were a bitch, yet you invited and held me as I answered the call to leap from girl to woman.
From the depths of my soul across all timelines: I honor you. I thank you. I love you, and I release you.

In both January and May of 2021, I moved locally. Had I listened to almost everyone else’s thoughts, I’d be a hot ass mess forcing my way into living with my beau. 🤮

I heard it all:
~How long have you been dating? 
~Why aren’t you moving in with him?
~You should live together before marriage! 
~You will save money!

Fortunately, at this point, I built up a level of trust in myself as the authority of my love life.

If there’s one rule I’ll ever preach, it’ll be this: Know Thyself. 

I knew I was not available to live with my man back then. It felt rushed and just off. I  was also a clear hell no to saving money as the driving factor for living with him.  I wasn’t interested in bringing that energy to myself, him, or us. 

There was an opportunity for me to be persuaded by others. My dear friends meant well, yet their views were their views; from their lens, based on their experiences, their thoughts, and their pasts.

I decided to trust myself, and I chose to live it. Exercising this level of faith in my instincts transformed me instantly into one who trusts herself. I didn’t want others’ opinions. I turned within and acted on my own guidance. I shared vulnerably & candidly with my beau on where I was.

This is the only way I care to live. Owning my truth and standing in it is who I am. It means more than words could convey. It is worth more than anyone could ever put a price on.

Think about that thing you are grappling with within a relationship (any relationship will do!) If you absolutely trusted yourself, what would be your next move?

Act on it.
Back yourself up.
BE the one who trusts self.

When the mind kicks on (and it will), back yourself up and BE the version of you that trusts yourself. You are so much more powerful than the habitual thought feed that cycles inside you. 🤍

When life is being lifey and threatens to take away something or someone you love fiercely it’s normal to feel anxiety and fear take up shop in your body. This *energy* is intense!

Perhaps you:
~curse it
~ignore it
~overanalyze it
~spew your energy onto anyone/anything else so you don’t have to be with it (ask me how I know 😂)

This causes distortion in your energetic field. You’re asking the anxiety and fear to be something it’s not. You’re asking yourself to be in a state you are not.

When you fear losing someone (or something) you love, the energy swirling in your body/energetic field needs permission to be exactly as it is in the moment.

After hundreds of sessions with clients (and thousands of sessions with myself), I’ve learned: *uncomfortable energy* is an opportunity to nurture the scared parts of self.

When the energy is tended to and acknowledged it has options.
It may:
~intensify for a short bit
~disappear altogether
~transform into something else
~pull up a chair and hang with you longer than you’d like
~deliver clear guidance
~something else entirely because I don’t have ALL the answers 😂

Invitations are ever-present in the human experience. When uncomfortable emotions come knocking, who will you be?

🤔Will you sit with this energy, breathe, and invite it in so it could offer something profound for you now?

🤔Will you contract, close, and shun the energy, thus re-activating the cycle of suppression and re-emergence at a later date?

Either way is doable.
Which timeline do you choose?
💞

As life calls me to wake up from my (almost) year of retreat, I’m tuning back into my goals, my dreams, and navigating life from a new, solid foundation.

I’m present to the gift of the insanely loving, generous, and wise nature of the Universe.

It lined up exactly what I needed months before I even knew I would need support for the EXACT time I need it…which is also my birthday week.

The Divine Intelligence blows me away and makes me giggle.

I’m in awe and feel comforted by All That Is, knowing that I Am All That Is, too.

So really, I’m getting what I knew I needed and giving to myself. Nothing is outside of me. There’s a natural coherence and flow to It all.

Grateful AF!

A few nights ago, right cheek smooshed against his muscular chest, arms around his waist, I heard it: “I like that you’re so low maintenance.”

“Say more.”

“It’s so easy to be with you. You appreciate the small things. You say I’ve given so much, & I feel like I haven’t given much. It’s easy to make you happy.”

Tears lined my eyes. I thought – this is what I’ve always wanted to hear. He gets me. I’ve always felt this way about myself. 

“Thank you for seeing me. That hasn’t always been the case,” I said as I squeezed him tight.

I relaxed more deeply into his presence, feeling cherished, witnessed, honored.

This was 𝖓𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗 the case in the past. “Too much. Intense. What’s wrong with you? I can’t make you happy. Why you trippin’?” was the norm from men I’ve dated.

𝙄𝙣 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙮, 𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙨𝙞𝙢𝙥𝙡𝙮 𝙪𝙣𝙨𝙠𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙙:
~ I berated myself; therefore, I received the same energy from my dates.

~I didn’t understand how to vet a man. I chose insecure men who came on hard and fast, then chose them in a rush because they were right in front of me. 

~I didn’t get how to care for my own emotions and heart, so I met men who were also inexperienced in handling my heart with care.

~I didn’t know how to communicate my feelings and desires in a way a man could hear. I dated men who matched my inability to be vulnerable.

When I did begin trusting myself, I still met all types of men. I heard all the things I used to hear.

The only difference? I now stood on solid ground, recognizing flags, knowing when to walk because I was clear and consistent in myself and my destination.  

𝙈𝙮 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙞𝙣𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙢𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙘𝙝𝙤𝙞𝙘𝙚𝙨.
Emotional attachments were secondary. I 𝖈𝖊𝖆𝖘𝖊𝖉 𝖇𝖊𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖆 𝖛𝖎𝖇𝖗𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓𝖆𝖑 𝖒𝖆𝖙𝖈𝖍 with the insecure, abusive, lost types.

My man reflects how fiercely I chose to and continue to choose to love myself in all my mess.

This is dynamic – never set in stone.  The minute I put everything on him & stop caring deeply for myself, he will FEEL it, and our polarities will shift. He instinctively is less adoring because he unconsciously senses
my attempts to siphon energy from him…

Our romantic relationships are sacred. Each and every one of them is reflecting an aspect of your relationship with you.  You’re receiving your energetic match, regardless of your thoughts and emotions on it. 

When you’re looking for a ready NOW partner, you’re looking for a certain caliber of human. 

𝙔𝙤𝙪’𝙫𝙚 𝙜𝙤𝙩𝙩𝙖 𝙗𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙧𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙘 𝙢𝙖𝙩𝙘𝙝 𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 to line up with your person.

Look at your love life now. What is the one big thing your date/partner is reflecting back to you? Emoji 💩 if you dislike and 🥳 if you are excited with the reflection. Brave souls with the 💩 emoji –  share more deets for free coaching in the comments. Take advantage…I rarely offer free advice, like I rarely share my food. 😂

Bright One,

You hold countless layers.

Each with its own code that, once cracked, reveals yet another layer.

Complex yet simple.

As each layer relaxes & opens, you slip closer and closer to the magnificence anchored deep within the center of your being.

This is the Essence of all that you are.

You possess this warmth, magnetism, and an inner well of magnificence, always.

Magic arises when you access & give from your well freely while remaining:

Mysterious yet inviting

Open yet discerning

Soft yet strong

You hold the code to the deepest layers of you. No one can access a new layer without your permission.

If you’ve done the mindset work yet still feel scared or unable to open fully, I’d be stoked to serve you!

Your body is holding onto energy from past painful experiences. It’s time to let go and experience the inexhaustible force of Love that you are.

🧲 Love is a powerful vibration that draws in exactly what you’re focused on.

Re-calibrate to Love, no matter what.

PSA: This does not mean you take shit and stay in an abusive/toxic situation.

🧲 Choose to Love YOU first and 🅢🅗🅞🅦 the Universe you are only available to be matched at the delicious frequency of being 𝙘𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙗𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙝𝙚𝙙.

XO💋

Short answer:
👏 Stop 👏Lying 👏To 👏Yo’self!

Loves, lying to yourself- even with the tiniest things will screw you over. When you’re flip-floppy and mal-aligned with yourself, you’ll misread vital intuitive hits. And you’ll confuse TF outta the laws that are trying to deliver to you your 🦄 How do I know? I’ve lived like this most of my life! 🤦🏽‍♀️Below find: Actual things I’ve said/experienced. The 𝐥𝐢𝐞 I told myself. What was 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐧, & 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐝. 

🚩 “Boy, you like to drink a lot!”
𝐋𝐢𝐞: Oh, it’s nothing. I like to party too! This is normal for our age.
𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: I rationalized flags on date 2 because he was hot, charming, & interested
𝐑𝐞𝐬𝐮𝐥𝐭: Tumultuous 5-year relationship with an alcoholic who cheated on and left me. 

🚩 *He grabbed my hand from across the table. I recoiled immediately + pulled my entire arm back.*
𝐋𝐢𝐞: Maybe I’m being too sensitive. He’s got that masculine energy I love!
𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: I didn’t understand my body wisdom + language. It was telling me this guy was not safe for me.
𝐑𝐞𝐬𝐮𝐥𝐭: Survived verbal + emotional abuse most days for 10 months. Oh, and he dumped me by text. 

🚩 “To be honest, it’s moving a little fast for me.”
𝐋𝐢𝐞: This is all I ever wanted. It scary, but isn’t any new relationship? Stop second-guessing, + enjoy this!
𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: I ignored the call for SLOW.
𝐑𝐞𝐬𝐮𝐥𝐭: 2 months in, he did a 180. I asked about where he was with us. He ghosted. 

You know the drill, too: You see, hear, feel, EXPERIENCE a thing. It feels off, + you discount it. Right there, at the point of choice is where you have the power to shift what’s next in your reality. 

It’s time to practice radical honesty. Especially if you are concerned with wasting your time. That’s it. Stick with trusting yourself no matter what your brain + feelings holler.

Your intuition does not yell. The faster you say no thank you to potential, the faster you meet the one who is aligned with celebrating and loving the fuck out of you NOW.

Loving you, and knowing YOU GOT THIS. 💋

I don’t care which camp you’re in
Today is a new day

Nothing shifts overnight
Not the challenges in your relationship
Not the challenges in our country

May we lean into possibilities
May we lean into faith
May we lean into collaboration

There are no Saviors except The One who looks back at you in the mirror

May you know your inherent power to create
May you be reminded of + supported in who you are when you forget
May you rest in acceptance of where you are today + every day

I don’t care which camp you’re in
Today is a new day

Nude sunbathing makes my soul smile. The wind caresses my breasts while the sun kisses my yoni. My woman is so pleased with my inner masculine for pausing and lavishing her with attention on our date.

We often think we want our partner to make us feel better.

I invite you to think twice and look within.

Does your inner masculine listen to your inner feminine, or does he shut her down?

Does he take her on dates and give her his full presence?

How about your inner fem? Does she show appreciation for his efforts?

Does she receive him and accept him as he is without manipulating him to change?

The solution is easy when you stop looking outside. Gift yourself with what you desire. After all, you know best how to please yourself. 💞