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She bolts to the bathroom doorway
Interrupting his flow

‘I need attention!’
Her face contorted
Tears well in her eyes
The invisible damn threatens to break

He lays down his glasses
He drops the screwdriver’Ok’

His arms open in a welcoming embrace
She moves into his warmth

She buries her face in him
Heart pounding
Stomach swirling
Being careful not to crack

Still calculated + rigid
Protective

Unapologetic
‘I can’t talk about it right now
When I can I will’

He holds her tight
He stays
Strong
Solid

They move into her room
The damn breaks

‘I feel like I need to tell you now instead of going off on my own
It’s been bothering me for awhile now
I’ve been able to handle it on my own
Until now
I know we are comfortable together + it’s normal
You’ve been on your phone a lot more
You’re not doing anything wrong
It triggers me
I had exes cheat + be on their phone right next to me with other women
It makes me wonder who you’re talking to
I know you wouldn’t do that
I trust you
And I still have a hard time with it’

She stands
Messy
Waiting for the rebuke

Heart pounding
Stomach swirling 
Eyes darting everywhere but to him

Instead

 She receives his stillness
His understanding
His strength
His care
His nurture

She relaxes into his embrace
She is safe
Rigidity eases
Her body softens 

She is a student of Love

She is me

I am a student of Love

The sages say if you want to master something, teach it. 
It is no mistake that now [right after declaring I specialize in Sex + Intimacy – where my transformation was/continues to be] the volume on my wounding is turned all the way up.

My edges of receiving healthy love are being pushed. I’m expanding into a larger container to receive all this love. I’m here for it. 

Will you be too Sweet Sister? 

I’m worthy AF simply because I Am. 
You’re worthy AF, simply because you are. 

Here are some ideas to sit + journal with in the realm of romantic relating:

~Where are your edges being pushed? 
~Will you go there?
 ~What would make you a yes to going there? A no?
~Who in your circle is safe to be intimate with + share this? 

If you’ve been here, are here, or are just feelin’ this,  gimme a 🤗 below.